[..]it's captioned with something like "when you have read all the good fic about your OTP." ...and that's it, it's that feeling, only I feel like very few of us have ever gotten used to consistently good content, we just want to see queer ladies represented and we don't have a whole lot of choices. I have watched some terrible, terrible media because of this.
I'm agreestamping all over this with such force that I might break my keyboard. IJS.
Gods, I was a kid in the 80s and I can honestly say that I don't recall seeing ANY representation of female queerness. There were many rumours and innuendo but nothing that I could say "oh, hey, that woman has the same feelings I do or, at the very least, similar ones!"
IIRC, I didn't notice anything until that glorious period between 1994 and 1998 where a lot of my (formative) queer women films were released: Go Fish, Gia, All Over Me, Fire, Bound, Foxfire, etc. This was also the period where shows like La Femme Nikita and Xena showcased female queerness on TV (the latter eventually turning it into maintext, the former leaving it way more vague than it needed it to be).
Bookwise, however, there were a lot of real life accounts of queer women thanks to writers such as Lillian Faderman--who began publishing books in 1990/1991.
My fic-reading habits were 100% about femslash. I'd read pretty much anything as long it had two women as the main couple. By 2009, however, I was reading about 80% M/M and splitting the remaining 10% between F/F, het, and gen.
Nowadays, I am reading even less F/F (whether profic or fic) even though there is so much more available. I'm not quite sure why that is so I don't know how to feel about that. As a queer woman, part of me is like "Luce, you ship F/F like whoa whenever you consume media. You champion femslash pairings to people who aren't even IN Fandom so why don't you want to read about it?" and the other part is super ashamed that I don't find F/F as enticing to read as I do M/M.
FTR, I do have about 5 or so F/F YA books in my TBR pile but I'm not in a rush to get to them.
TL;DR: I've got complicated feelings about F/F all over the place and it messes me up. The fact that I'm queer myself just adds more fuel to the fire. /o\
ETA: I wasn't a fan of Will & Grace due to my general dislike for TV comedy shows. Lost and Delirious was amazing and so fracking angsty that I almost couldn't deal with watching it more than once.
Fun fact: I saw Brokeback Mountain on a blind date with a woman and we were the only women in the audience filled with gay men. Neither of us had any idea that the movie was going to be so terribly sad. Like, to the point that we went our separate ways shortly after leaving the theater and never talked to each other again.
At that time, I respected the film's narrative but looking back I've grown to resent it. Mostly because I'm tired of the "if you're not straight, then your life will be tragic" notion.
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Date: 2016-02-10 09:12 pm (UTC)I'm agreestamping all over this with such force that I might break my keyboard. IJS.
Gods, I was a kid in the 80s and I can honestly say that I don't recall seeing ANY representation of female queerness. There were many rumours and innuendo but nothing that I could say "oh, hey, that woman has the same feelings I do or, at the very least, similar ones!"
IIRC, I didn't notice anything until that glorious period between 1994 and 1998 where a lot of my (formative) queer women films were released: Go Fish, Gia, All Over Me, Fire, Bound, Foxfire, etc. This was also the period where shows like La Femme Nikita and Xena showcased female queerness on TV (the latter eventually turning it into maintext, the former leaving it way more vague than it needed it to be).
Bookwise, however, there were a lot of real life accounts of queer women thanks to writers such as Lillian Faderman--who began publishing books in 1990/1991.
My fic-reading habits were 100% about femslash. I'd read pretty much anything as long it had two women as the main couple. By 2009, however, I was reading about 80% M/M and splitting the remaining 10% between F/F, het, and gen.
Nowadays, I am reading even less F/F (whether profic or fic) even though there is so much more available. I'm not quite sure why that is so I don't know how to feel about that. As a queer woman, part of me is like "Luce, you ship F/F like whoa whenever you consume media. You champion femslash pairings to people who aren't even IN Fandom so why don't you want to read about it?" and the other part is super ashamed that I don't find F/F as enticing to read as I do M/M.
FTR, I do have about 5 or so F/F YA books in my TBR pile but I'm not in a rush to get to them.
TL;DR: I've got complicated feelings about F/F all over the place and it messes me up. The fact that I'm queer myself just adds more fuel to the fire. /o\
ETA: I wasn't a fan of Will & Grace due to my general dislike for TV comedy shows. Lost and Delirious was amazing and so fracking angsty that I almost couldn't deal with watching it more than once.
Fun fact: I saw Brokeback Mountain on a blind date with a woman and we were the only women in the audience filled with gay men. Neither of us had any idea that the movie was going to be so terribly sad. Like, to the point that we went our separate ways shortly after leaving the theater and never talked to each other again.
At that time, I respected the film's narrative but looking back I've grown to resent it. Mostly because I'm tired of the "if you're not straight, then your life will be tragic" notion.